Dear Journal

So tired...

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 07:16:31 GMT

I'm so tired. I don't know why, but man am I just plain out beat. Pat and i did some running around with Farelle and it was fun but I feel like I'm more disorinized than ever. I think I need to clean up but I feel almost sick with tired. Maybe I should just go to bed and get up early as possible.

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 18:29:14 GMT

Bleh, its humid and hot again and I feel like I'm made out of spaghetti-o's. Except I'm not, which rocks. Being made of those would be bad. ::Nods:: Uh, anyway. Yeah, my back hurts, and I'm still not sure whats causing it. I'll love to know, lemme tell ya, but I think it might be the way I'm sleeping. :< I guess time will tell.

Also, Flip was supposed to come over today and still hasn't. I wonder what chomped his plans this time?

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 16:36:51 GMT

Owwwwwwwwwwwwowowowowowow

Did I say ow? Well, I meant OOOWWWWWWW!

My back, which has never hurt this much before, hurts alot more than it ever has. What the hell did I do to it? I have no idea. But it sucks. Alot. ;.;

Its on my right side, on the lower part/ under or on the shoulderblade. Its hard to move much at all without it hurting. :< And ideas? I took some pain stuff for it but I can't do that for forever.

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 06:10:44 GMT

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/worldnews/article-1205022/Koda-born-health-problems-doctors-worried-But-turns-hes-just-little-horse.html

Holy crap, thats a tiny horse... and yes, it qualifies as a horse.

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 08:11:35 GMT

Odd dream I had.

I had a dream where Pat and I went to a convention. Everything went well and all but there was a back current about it I kept having trouble trying to peg what it was, on. So I was OK until we all (the whole con kid of) had to move. the people anyway. It was like, the end of the evening and it was dark but Pat and I stayed in the con hotel for awhile. And I kept feeling these bites or something and I kept looking around and there was nothing there. Until Pat was like, "Wtf is that!?" And I looked at where he pointed on my shoulder and there was this parasite just hanging off me, just like drinking my blood from my shoulder. It was on good too, I couldn't pull it off. So Pat and I theorized o how to get it off and it let go and squiggled down to my butt/right thigh and clung there which hurt even worse and I freaked out and yelled and generally had a mild panic attack, like, shit this 'thing' keeps moving around and biting me and that's when I noticed that there were more. On Me. :{ I was about to tell Pat to get a knife so I could carve them off, when I got if off myself, by picking it up/off like you would a poisonous snake. Which, I know, in reality of course makes no sense, but... I went to throw it away and it zoomed out and reattached itself, and that's when some other person told Pat that these problems were all over the place. So we went into the basement where all us 'infected' were now, and I stood in like and waited until I knew someone and tried to keep my cool and talk to them, instead of focusing on the Parasites. What I didn't know was that after long enough they cause skin to go numb and apparently all the people in the basement with their parasites attracted more and more parasites. So people ended up like, collapsing from loss of blood and stuff and I didn't. Someone decided burning the parasites was a good idea and I agreed and people started burning the parasites up once they could get them off... only thing was, was that if you broke them they became not one but two parasites, three, four... So the parasites burned and kept trying to multiply in order to try'n escape. And some of them did find a way to escape so to speak. They'd like, burrow inside people, under their skin and like, into other places so I got all ultra ultra paranoid, and they place where they burned the parasites the parasites that did escape, like, also burned people. So yeah. Well, they started to make people think having the parasites was good, or something. Maybe even beneficial, and this was after awhile, because there's people on the ground passed out from blood loss and exhausted and stuff and there's dead worm like things that were all over. And I was one of the only ones still standing. I think Pat ran off and one of the parasites that was by now, like, huge, about nine inches long and maybe three or four inches around was like moving around and biting me a lot. And I was grabbed by this one dude and hes got like, freaking parasite carpet on his back and arms and they all like, made a mad dash for me and I screamed and tried to get away, only to be stopped on the other side by some girl who was like, kind of hefty so she wasn't gonna be easy to shake off and I get like, hefted up and carried over to a cleaner spot where there aren't any dead parasites on the floor or anything and they're trying to comfort me, telling me it'd be okay or something. Well, they were all trying to comfort me and tell me how it was natural and okay. I was like, "no, sorry, I think I'd rather be dead by now," and I started to struggle, and the parasites started to try to burrow under my skin, and it hurt, a lot, and they just laughed and held me down and I was rendered pretty much powerless. I eventually stopped struggling because I couldn't conjure up enough strength to break free and it seemed that the calmer I was, then less pain there was and I was in a world of hurt anyway. the guy that spread so may of the things to me was trying to calm me down, and petting my hair. I dunno why but in the nightmare there weren't any parasites on my head, thank God. And seriously trying to get me to take my clothes off so they could feed on me easier!? I was just a little more than pissed off at the suggestion and told him to, like, eat rocks and die. So he and some other guy like ripped my clothes off and that's when I woke up.

I guess I want opinions. What do you guys thing this dream means?

What Big Cat Are You?

Sun, 24 May 2009 08:00:38 GMT

You Are a Lynx

You are a quiet observer of the world around you. Your wisdom comes from listening carefully.
You've always been extra sensitive and aware. And it's made it difficult for you to fit in.

You see past people's outward personas. You are able to penetrate a stranger's soul.
What you've learned about people is both beautiful and ugly. And you keep these secrets to yourself.

What Big Cat Are You?

Thats better. :)

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 02:14:26 GMT

I'm feeling better now. I think I was having a really bad off-day before and I'm still not sure why it happened. Either way, I'm open to commissions. :)

I'm going to be open for 5$ and 10$ commissions today!
I have five slots open for each, so be quick! :D Leave a comment below or Note me if your interested. Also, you could e-mail me at SilvrWingsDragon@aol.com. :)
5$'s will get you this: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1978583/
10$'s will get you this: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1935985

:D

If anyone's interested in them, feel free to comment!

On to the rest of my day, its been... oddly quiet. o.o; There's alot going on and its somehow quiet. Last night Aerak and Alkora came over to drop off my sketchbook, which was nice, but I'm always just happy to see them, so yeah. X3 They played Laser tag and went bowling while Pat and I stayed here and vegged out. And today I slept in a loooong time. I think it was the rain, because I felt like going to bed at 5 pm because it felt like 2 AM to me. o.o; Merf. So, not as much work done today because I couldn't really focus. Plus my stomach hurts. We'll see if I can actually do art after I eat.

Out of it

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 22:03:14 GMT

I feel weird. I've been feeling really out of it and aggressive all day long, and abnormally tired. I sat down in the computer chair and Fell Asleep, withing five seconds of sitting. WTF? O.o Its just so not me. I understand if I'm dozy or sleepy but that's just not right. so I'm gonna be up till about 10-11 tonight. I don't wanna go to sleep later than that.

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 00:37:30 GMT

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 14:11:48 GMT

I've had a wonderful, wonderful Christmas so far today! I got some really nice things from Pats Family yesterday and from Pat this Morning. Ones a sunlight generator to keep me a happy healthy Carrie this winter, and I got Pat too. :D He doesn't usually wrap gifts either, but he did for me, and it made me a very happy Carrie indeed. ^.^! And From Pats sisters, I got a Petco gift card for 25$, and the newest Batman movie too. ♥ And Chris gave me two pictures. One he commissioned, and one I got at MFM (Memphis fur meet) the he got framed for me. ♥ I can't wait to see what else will happen gift wise but for now, I'm completely content with my waffles and bacon, my Pat, and my cheer for Farellemoons wedding proposal from Chemicalwolf.

Merry Christmas Everyone! I hope yours will be as good as ours has been!

Mushroom mushroom mushroom

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 02:45:18 GMT

I love mushrooms. They're soooooo yummeh. <3

Well, aside from that, I've pulled it off! apparently, I'm going to Memphis furmeet! ( MFM) and rooming with Farellemoon. <3 This is going to be mega huge fun. <3 And a big learning experience. For the next twelve cons I'll be with her, and thats going to rock. I'm just going to have to count my chickens early, and hope they all hatch. After all, percetages seem to have worked out for me in the past.

Well, here it goes. :) I'm still, as usual, open for commissions BUT only smaller ones like badges or maybe one or two colored character ones for this instant in time. Let meknow if theres an interest.

<3

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 23:58:35 GMT

Well looks like I went insane last night and rollplayed as a fennec fox high on Cokeacola and montaindew and even posted a journal on it. X3 Lol. Anyway, Looks like tonight is a DnD night! :D yays. ^.^

OMG whut?

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 08:19:10 GMT

Me? ...post something...? Why OMG. :X

O y yes. I do post. An d O y yes, I do drink COOOOOOOKE before BEEEEEEEED with Mountain DEEEEEEEEEEW.

Omg, sorry guys. X3 ASanyways! Yes, I'm going to TRY, yes... try, to post here more often. Besides, Farellmoons on LJ now. And muh friends too. Yeah. So more journals will be going up. See you in the morning. I think. o.o

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 07:10:38 GMT

I guess I got bored. XD But then again, I also guess I was entertained. Late nights for confused minds. Woohoo!

Your results:
You are Uhura

Uhura		60%
Spock		59%
Deanna Troi		55%
Chekov		55%
Jean-Luc Picard		55%
James T. Kirk (Captain)		45%
Geordi LaForge		40%
An Expendable Character (Redshirt)		40%
Beverly Crusher		40%
Worf		35%
Mr. Scott		25%
Mr. Sulu		25%
Data		24%
Will Riker		20%
Leonard McCoy (Bones)		15%

You are a good communicator with a
pleasant soft-spoken voice.
Also a talented singer.

Click here to take the Star Trek Personality Quiz

Writer's Block: Being Another Creature

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 07:08:10 GMT

I would be a Dragon for their beauty, rarity and purity.

Anthrocon Deals!

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 16:16:34 GMT

Wow, Anthrocon is so close! I feel a bit like I can't wait, and like I wish I had more time. Lol. Well, Heres a nice Anthrocon Special for you LJers out there. I'm going to go out on a limb and offer some commissions again.

Prices are as listed for now till AC:

Well, I start off most of my prices at about $5.00 to a sketch.
A multi character sketch is $10.00 This means no color, no ink, and no background, unless I sketch that in for fun.

Inking, single character. Inking is $15.00
Multi character inkings are $20.00

Colored character, single, (with inking) is $30.00.
Multi character color (with inking) is $35.00.

Colored character with a partial background is $40.00
A full background is closer to $60.00.

Add an extra $5.00 for every additional character.
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Another thing, because Anthrocon is getting so close, I'm open for Badge, and Icon Commissions. :) Badge Commissions are up for grabs for $20.00, while Icons are 10.00$ each. :)

Please feel free to AIM me at SilvrWingsDragon. Or E-mail me at: SilvrWingsDragon@aol.com . Please put ART in the subject line, so that I know what its about. Or you can just comment here. I accept PayPal, Personal Check and Money Order.

Here are a few examples of my art as well if your not wanting to look at the Dragon section in my website:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1262940/ (Nudity!)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1281340/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1281271/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1213588/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1108195/

Commissions and Life

Tue, 13 May 2008 15:21:46 GMT

Lifes good. I'm tired, but I'm happyish. :D I may yet have a chance at aC! ::GRIN!!!:: I've talked to the rents and chances are still slim, but NOT impossible! And I'm getting a few commissions
1 owl badge
2 moviDir badge
3 zannoa two character color

Other than that, nothing. BUT I'm ever hopeful for more. I have PLenty of free time and I'm really hoping for more commissions to pop in!

Heres the info again incase anyone needs or wants it: http://www.freewebs.com/silvrwingsdragon/index.htm .

Cheers everyone, And COMMENT. :3

What the hell?

Thu, 08 May 2008 07:57:19 GMT

Guh.

This is not woring. I've been asking, begging, pleading... whatever you would like to call it, for commissions so I even have a CHANCE at going to Anthrocon. So yes. I've done all that I can think of except for offer a sketchbook commission where I do something much like that shadowwolf or someone would do. The only reason I haven't tried this is because I'm unsure as to if it would work or not.

PLEASE, PEOPLE. I NEED COMMISSIONS. I'm a decent artist, I can get my art out fast and I'm offering badges for 25$ usd, and icons for 10$ usd. I'm trying to get everything together and stuff, but I CAN'T do it without you. You guys make it possible for me to be able to do things like go to cons to see and meet all of you and have fun.

Heres my website again, for Art and Prices: http://www.freewebs.com/silvrwingsdragon/index.htm

Here are a few examples of my art as well if your not wanting to look at the Dragon section in my website:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1262940/ (Nudity!)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1281340/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1281271/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1213588/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1108195/

::Crosses her fingers.::

Tue, 06 May 2008 10:50:35 GMT

Hey guys.

Lifes been good, except than I don't have any money. So, I'm going to do something about it, or try. Commissions are still open and I'm willing to draw anything that'll get me money. Heres the regular website where you can see what my prices and stuff are: http://www.freewebs.com/silvrwingsdragon/index.htm , but if your feeling lazy, just scroll down.

Alrighty, then. Here's your List. :)

*****

Well, I start off most of my prices at about $10.00 to a sketch.
A multi character sketch can go from $15.00 to $20.00, depending on the amount of detail. This means no color, no ink, and no background, unless I sketch that in for fun.

Inking, single character. Inking can be from $25.00 to $30.00. This depends on the amount of detail.
Multi character inkings are $35.00 to $40.00.

Colored character, single, (with inking) is $45.00.
Multi character color (with inking) is $50.00.

Colored character with a partial background is also $55.00 to $58.00. A 'full' background is closer to $65.00 or $70.00. This would include depth and detail for the $65.00. The 55.00 is also in depth. The $65.00 to $70.00 is the difference between seeing the leaves inked, or leaving the leaves to the imagination without inking them in with detailed inks.

Colored characters with a full or partial background. The details remain the same, except for the price. The price will vary between $75.00 to $85.00. This will depend on how many characters you want in the image, of course.

<************>
Another thing, because Anthrocon is getting so close, I'm open for Badge Commissions, and Icon Commissions. :) Badge commissions are up for grabs for $25, while Icons are 10.00$ each. :)

Please feel free to AIM me at SilvrWingsDragon. Or E-mail me at: SilvrWingsDragon@aol.com . Please put ART in the subject line, so that I know what its about. Or you can just comment here. :D

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 02:10:52 GMT

Hey all. I think I'm going to try to use my LJ. (Shocking! XD) Lol. I'm going to start out light and things are going to progress from there on.

Heres a meme of sorts I found is Caylees journals.

---Reply to this post, stating 3 or more reasons you like me. I will respond with an equal number of reasons why I like you! Once you've answered, post this in your own journal.---

---Reply to this post and fill in the blanks: (with however many words you want)

Farore reminds me of: Who I am, alot of the time. Soetimes I look athere and envy her a bit because she does alot of things successfully that I try and seem to fail at. Yay for Winning!
I think Farore thinks I'm: An interesting person? I don't know. I have a fear that she things I'm a bit boring, but I hope I'm wrong there.
If Farore were to save one thing from her house burning down, it would probably be:Uhm.... I think she might grab her tombone or her art supplies. But I'll go out on a limb and say one of her dresses. She loves them so!
Farore and I share a common interest in: Art.
I think Farore's best physical feature is: Her eyes. They're Super blue in the right kind of light.
The best thing about her mentally is: Shes very intelligent and loves to have intelligent converstaions.
Farore probably has: A stuffer tiger in her bed.
If I could guess what was in her closet, I'd say: Clothes?
If there's one thing Farore ISN'T, it's: Stupid. I'm having a hard tome imagining a dumb Farore.
Above all, I feel Farore is: A wonderful person and a great artist and friend.

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 00:09:40 GMT

HAHAH!!! DX
I'm stupid. Reson why? Well, let me just say it like this, I posted to he Furaffinity and then thought it'd echo on my own page.
Apparently that is not the cse. o.o;

Well, anyway, this is what I posted to the Furaffinity page:

Hey guys!

I'm looking into going to Anthrocon this year, and I need some help. Usually, I'm just putting up an add or two on my Furaffinity, (http://www.furaffinity.net/user/flyingfire/) or my DeviantArt. (http://flyingfire.deviantart.com/) But I thought I'd post it up here as well, that I am, as of now, open for Commissions of any kind. I also do Badges and Fullbody Badges. (for those that don't know, a Fullbody Badge is just that. Instead of a headshot, you get the whole body.)

Badges are currently $20.00
Fullbody Badges are $35.00, but I think that its worth it, for those that would like such a thing.
Others can be found here: http://www.freewebs.com/silvrwingsdragon/index.htm on my website.
Let it be known that I can also do icons. :3

So, Who alls going to Anthrocon or trying? Who does and does not have a room? Info, ppl. :3

Also, feel free to let me know what you guys are up to. I'd really like to know if anyones interested in commissions.

Thanks :D

Time is running out!

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 02:02:03 GMT

Soon I'll be either going to Midwest Fur Fest, or not For those of you that don't have my prices, please feel free to click here and view my site: http://www.freewebs.com/silvrwingsdragon/index.htm
Con prices will apply. Ask, there are discounts.
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Examples of my recent work: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/892881/ (not work safe. Bloody doodle.)
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http://flyingfire.deviantart.com/art/Rhian-69547011 (non detailed nudity.)
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http://flyingfire.deviantart.com/art/Night-of-Terror-68677467 (a bit bloody but its for halloween. Everyone likes fake blood! :D )
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http://flyingfire.deviantart.com/art/The-Real-Dragon-in-Me-68023155 (My dragon-sona.)
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http://flyingfire.deviantart.com/art/GoldWings-Progression-68022680 (a Gold dragon taking fLight.)
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http://flyingfire.deviantart.com/art/Wolf-Grey-64124680 (wolf sketch.)
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http://flyingfire.deviantart.com/art/RedLockedDragon-55640798 (grinning piebald dragon)
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http://www.furaffinity.net/view/814275/ (lockjaw. Creature creation is (c) Allison Theus.)
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http://www.furaffinity.net/view/607222/ (t-shirt with Adam Wards character I made just for him.)

So far I've pulled about 100 dollars for MFF, and I need about 200 dollars more to add to that. I'm also opening a PAYPAL account! Yay! So! If you want to commission me, or ask me any questions, I'll be only too pleased to answer anything you may want answered. :3

Please comment! :D

Progression

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 14:14:03 GMT

There are times in which someone forgets things. I forgot about LJ for a long time, but now I'll try to update more often. My last entries were not so great, admittedly.

In the time I've been gone drastic and huge things have changed in my life. I've nearly lost my mother to breast cancer, My uncle Mike has died, my Grandma Krueger has died, and my cat Oreo has gone, as well. All in the span of a year. I can say that my friends held me together and know that I'm right. I just wish that this year had been more pleasant over all.

The good things that happened were at the beginning of the year when Chris surpised me with a day trip to somewhere special for Valentines day. Ice skating and finding hockey pucks in the frozen ice of lake Phaelan is really fun. On the ice, cold is forgotten when your so concerned with where to step and how not to fall into a fishing-hole! :D When spring came this year it was mostly uneventful, Oreo was lying around being his fat, lovely cute self and I miss that more than I can say. Grandma was doing as well as usual. There wasn't any worry over my uncle mike.... hell, I thought he had years left, if not decades! things were peaceful in my musty 130 year old house. I was perfectly happy, if not irked by Chris wanted to walk 5 miles a day.

then... something happened. Uncle Mike fell down the stairs and died pretty much instantly of falling on his head. I was so scared, most of all because it reminds us all of how short and sudden life can be. The only good thing that I can think of with Uncle Mikes Death is that I thank god his daughter didn't find him that way. I could Not Imagine how traumatizing that would have been fo her....

After the sudden death, I was reluctant to travel. I wanted to stay with my family, even if my mourning was weak in comparison to the rest of my families. I only saw him once in awhile but I still loved him. I just felt that maybe he wouldn't want me to cry for him too much. Life isn't about missing what you don't have. so, after much coaxing from yifferfox and other friends, and, surpisingly, Mom, I went to Anthrocon in June. I had SUCH a blast!

For a bit over a week I was worry-free. Everything melted into furry happiness and hanging out with my sister Jen (we're not related, but you'd never know it from how we act together! XD )

I was as happy as I could be, even if the ride to the actual con was nine hours. XD I met alot of people there at AC again. Some I saw, in wonder, that I hardly remembered, yet, they remembered me. o.o;; I hate my memory sometimes. :P

I was in Artists-Alley for three days. I was astounded I got in three times! I even sat by Farore for a split second, but the angle felt wrong. I don't like facing doors. It just makes my chair feel like its gonna fall over. :P So, I moved over by some awesome guy that was a Jack-Sparrow look clone practically. It was awesome. He was totally cool. AND I still owe him a picture. ::Shakes her fist in mock anger. XD :: Damn you Sparrow! XDD You won the bet! (so wonderfully pirate-y!)

After Anthrocon... wow, can you say CON AIDS? well, I had the lightest version, I suppose. All in all, poor Farore had the worst of it. Then things started to hit the fan. Grandma died not long after my AC visit and I was struck down by my cat Oreo dying as well. All within two weeks of the con, and within each other. For a long time I didn't do much. I had a sudden obsession with drawing Oreo all over my sketch books and throwing out alot of my art and staring at pictures of Grandma. I couldn't help but wonder why this had all happened, but it seemed inevitable, and Oreos death has been sudden. Putting him down was probably the saddest, most heart-breaking, soul-clenching thing I've ever done in all of my life. I made the vets cry. And vets? Well... they don't cry. I must have looked truly devastated..

I'm sorry if I'm ranting. The ranting gryphon would love me, huh?

Well, after getting over everything slowly, at least, to a point I could stand them, life returned to being pretty much normal. Hlloween was fun if a bit costume-angsty. (I ended up going as a cat harlequin. Sooo pretty! SPARKLIES!!) And now I guess I'm looking at November, or, should I say, the rest of it, and thinking about Midwest Fur Fest. :3

Midwest Fur Fest should be cool, provided I can go. I fell like I need the break, plus its a chance to make some extra funds. So far I'm in real need of commissions in order to help my cause. :o
Which means I'm about 150$'s away from going.
Which means anyone looking for any commissions at all would be highly appriciated. <3

Pricelist: http://flyingfire.deviantart.com/art/Midwest-Fur-Fest-68816304

Please comment!

Carrie.

Death Dreams...

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 07:29:19 GMT

I had a dream where the world had been bombed... My parents were dead, Chris, Bro and bros friends plus a gal buddy I had... We were alive still, but were were all going to die, too... the radiation was going to get us. I was dying inside as well in the dream, my depression killing me, even as I struggled to be happy that I, and some of the people I loved, were all alive still. I remember 'being' my friend, and how I was a glass maker. We were running out of sand... the world where I was was so corrupt and diseased that finding clean water was rare. The landscaped was burned red and ruined, bodies and naked bones on the streets and dead red grass. It was horrible... to see all those people just, die, just fall over and never have a chance.

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 16:40:45 GMT

I'm reslly tired of this. I mean really, truly, tired of it. I get up in a brilliant mood, and what happens? Dads parading around the house, sees me as I get out of my room, and seems fine,untilI ask him about Alex having given my dad the money hewas supposed to give me, himself. Dad starts getting grouchy, I ask whats wrong, and he yells at me. It was pretty much a yelling match to and from, less that two minutes after I'd woken up. Yippee. >:P I'm tired of having him treat 'us' like we're dog shit, and treats everyone else the way he's 'supposed' to treat his family.

::Sighs.::

Anyway, I'm glad that one thing hasn't gone awry yet. My friend Adam and I are gonna hang out.Its been awhile, so I just hope things go as planned.:)